although summer was supposed to be the time for taking breaks, i hardly had the chance to because of the back pains from my spinal disc bulges + work + nonsense questions to myself + i don't know. so last saturday, the boyfriend and i took a much need break from everything and just disconnected ourselves from the world. i think it's definitely healthy to have those much-deserved alone time with each other and just have fun without worrying about anything else.
now, you all know i've been feeling utterly disappointed at myself because i don't know exactly i want to do with my life and have been all over the place. i've realized though that it's just the fear talking and that i can take on anything i set myself to. everything happens for a reason and we just need to be courageous enough to accept it. of course, i need to make sure that i set my priorities straight.
i've hated waking up for a routine everyday, whether it be school or work. even as a child, there wasn't a morning where i didn't drag myself out of my bed. i wanted to be in control of my time and didn't want to have to follow a certain schedule that constrained me. although i was scared as hell, i finally decided to take control of my time. i've decided to dedicate my full time on our wholesale business and have writing jobs on the side and that i'll now only be working part time for the advertising agency that i've been working for. so far, i'm on my 2nd week of this arrangement but i am loving every minute of it. i decide what time i attend work as long as it's 4-5 hours and i get to spend most of my day, in my room and writing or sorting out clothes, shoes and bags for my store and our wholesale business.
they say i might get bored with this arrangement. i fully understand that and recognize that someday, i might decide to find work that's structured or even decide to be a stay at home mom. it took me a great deal of courage to admit this but life is unpredictable. i am unpredictable and i don't know what's going to happen to my life or how to get to what i want in life. but to hell with it, for now i'm gonna do what i enjoy and do what i want..RIGHT NOW!
printed mini-dress used as top - thrifted
white pleated skirt - thrifted
teal belt - robinson's dept store, dumaguete
nude suede wedges - gold dot
bangles: purple wood - bangkok find | orange polka resin - gifted |
red coral - boracay find | pewter bangles - carbon finds
rings - bangkok finds