this heartache

  

this was taken last sunday when i decided to suprise harry after his shift (at 9:00 AM) for breakfast at one of the retaurants in I.T. Park. decided to bring along snickers so he won't grow up ignorant from the world since he's mostly couped up in the room. he can't go out because our old dog is so mean and possessive of our attention (especially my dad's) that we're afraid she'd attack him. being a sunday morning, the park was serene, perfect for just hanging out and chilling. i sat by the pond for a while and enjoyed being alone for a few minutes. those are one of my favorite moments -- when i can just be alone and be allowed to think. 

so this weekend, harry and i watched one of the local movies 'miss you like crazy'... i've always loved the tandem of john lloyd cruz and bea alonzo on-screen (don't like her too much anywhere else..haha!) the movie was predictable but still interesting. i loved the concept. i loved the scenes. i love the conversations and the lines. and it brought about certain emotions that i've suppressed for a while. 

i miss my best friend so damn much. it's harder breaking up with a friend than with a boyfriend. you'd take years of friendship and just throw it away. she was my soulmate. we could be together and not say anything but know how we are feeling. we had a falling out almost 3 years ago and my heart is still aching, everyday. although i have harry, there are times when i'd feel so damn alone because i lost the only person who can understand me without asking why. i have tried opening up to my other friends but it's just different. she's in hawaii and i'm here. miles apart and we can't bridge this gap that we have. 

so now i have woken up with very swollen eyes, having cried myself to sleep last night.

polka mini-dress - thrifted

black cropped cardigan - thrifted

brown sandals - prima donna

brown leather bag - thrifted

bangles: orange polka - a gift | pink polka - DIY | bronze - props

vintage car necklace - manalili

sunnies - thrifted at carbon