restless

i'm in a rut.

have you ever found yourself overly restless and just unconsciously (and consciously) counting the time til' the day ends? i haven't felt like this since i was 12 years old when i couldn't wait to grow up and do amazing things. boy, i didn't picture restlessness as an adult. i thought i would conquer the world. a girl could dream right?

seriously, i've been feeling a little apathetic at work lately. de-motivated. i find myself hating the routine of this industry (BPO) and of this job. i wake up at 6:30 PM, snooze my alarm 3 times, take a bath, come in to work at 8:00 PM and do the same thing everyday. i roll my eyes at the foolishness of the people around me too many times and have had moments where i just sit in my chair, stare at my computer and do nothing. nada. i think i've taken too many bathroom or pantry breaks this week --- like maybe 10 times a day. and this is not me. when i get passionate about a job, i even forget to take breaks and don't mind extending hours for work at all. 

i need a change. don't get me wrong, i am not just complaining here but have actually started doing something to take me out of this rut. i've decided to take a complete career change that will take me away from this BPO industry. possibly a day job --- after 5 years since i graduated college. i don't want to jinx my plans but i do need your support. your prayers. 

here's to hoping. heartily hoping. 

buttoned cotton top - thrifted

puffed-sleeved cardigan - thrifted

jeans - bebe jeans

grey ballet flats - so fab! (a gift from big sis)

faux gold bangles - gifted from india | props
sewing machine necklace - random

enamel rose ring - thrifted at carbon

brown sunnies - thrifted at carbon

since we were 12 years old

i never get tired of this place. daanbantayan is the ultimate haven for me. not because it's has the perfect white sands or untouched waters but because it is quiet and is really a place where i can just unwind and not think about all life's problems. the funny thing is, the rest house is not even ours. it belongs to my dad's kind high school friend who has always allowed us to use the place whenever we want to --- save when they want to use it for themselves. so for 7 years, we've been coming back here as a family or with my friends. every time, always as fun as the last.

blue green printed kaftan - thrifted | yellow green bikini top - props | brown sunnies - thrifted at carbon

this memory of time spent with my long time best friends (since we were 12 years old) will remain forever in my mind. believe it or not, but this is the first time in a long time that we've been able to go out of town where majority of us are present. good friends, good food -- really good food like grilled pork, fresh crabs and fish and yummy kinilaw, good music, hilarious and challenging game of taboo, good drinks in the name of tanduay and kool-aid, never-ending laughter --- what more could i ask for?